t
h
s
But, LIKE this,t h s, nuh, with the "t' interlocked with the "h" with the "s" intertwining everything.
Been thinking about that, especially since, whatever I have been expecting, things are NOT turning out as fatalistic, for me, as I... was counting on.
So, I may as well...explain, and REALLY put the nail on the coffin.
Now, God spoke of "Government Thor", the firstborn of the ... ruler. NOT just the firstborn, but, if you want it, the priority as to WHY the earth is about to be turned on its head and what is the basis of it.
So far with all I have seen, no one gets it.
So, forget what you see NOW, and start at the... primary level.
YEAH-SSS
OK, NOW do you start to get the drift?
My sister and I have had each other's backs from way back when, and one reason why it was HER that I wrote a letter to as I was leaving, and said goodbye to NO ONE else was that I felt that I was abandoning her, and ONE thing I NEVER do, is back down. But I had to go, otherwise I would have killed my mother. She is the ONE person I ... understand and feel for, and because I begin to UNDERSTAND why I am the way I am, and what IMMENSE powers lie at MY disposal, I am going to FREE her, so that she spends the remainder of her days in... peace.
She is NOT dead, and for that I am grateful to God, because I also understand that there is a sort of thing called 'freedom of choice' that she is in her situation, but there is also been up to NOW, a power vacuum, because the ONE for whom the throne was kept was ... absent... from it.
not any more.
i will fuflfill my obligation to her, to keep her safe from harm, and fuck it, she will NOT die, ever.
I would rather leave the planet, myself, and for her sake, because of my mother, I will even do mu utmost to see to it that even my mother, from whose womb we both came, lives, but I will pull no punches in showing what is right and what is wrong,so that I prepare a people that I would not be ashamed of, to turn the earth over to, a people that is holy and true, and without any blemish.
So, I AM going home, to set her free from the disease, this 'embarrassment' that even themstupid south africans, the kalk bay residents, the woman I love "remember STOP Drinking", anyone? think is holding me back.
About THAT:- Funny that!
I spoke of the container thing with brackish water and two clear containers, and my other sister who was turning up her nose at all that, the sister I later explained was ... embarrassed... about me kicking and punching hard things. That happens to be the sister that I last spoke to who spoke so dismissively about yeukai. Her name is chengetai, which means 'keep' or 'preserve', and I am getting the sense here that this woman, who ignores everything that matters to me, thinks she can build some kind of 'relationship' with me based on the here and now, forgetting that I have a heart for some other things, that make me walk this odd way, because all my life I have been sort of 'pleading' with God that, if He can not let the one person whose life, whose ways, whose very being, I understand, and have resonate with, live, then why should he suffer me to have fifteen years of life?
Why not kill me instead?
Because that would be unbearable agony, to watch helplessly as she shrivels and dies.
So, if I have to, and I WILL, kill people so that I make my way to her and see her safe and sound, then I definitely WILL, and I have NOT, fools, changed my mind about allowing the rest of you, that I have decided do not deserve to live, live. Fuck it, I realise that fools like the little mama think I will let them off the hook.
dream on.
if I have decided that I am leaving this earth clean, then it is to be clean of everything that offends ME, and well, that is 99.99999999% of the current populace.
So, try your luck if you want to,but what I said I am going to do, that I WILL do.
I have slammed the door shut on the whole lot of you, and shut it remains, and who the fuck thinks he or she can budge me from that, or can direct me? Or second-guess me, and instruct me in the way I should go.
me the LORD over everything!
I heard they were fasting at vinnie's church. Boo- hoo!
I have said that I will kill all of them, save a few, and I WILL kill them, YEAH-SSS!
I cant sleep
and when I do, I have nightmares
...
I hope I can... protect ...the one thing I cant live without.
I [HAVENT] been here before
h
s
But, LIKE this,
Been thinking about that, especially since, whatever I have been expecting, things are NOT turning out as fatalistic, for me, as I... was counting on.
So, I may as well...explain, and REALLY put the nail on the coffin.
Now, God spoke of "Government Thor", the firstborn of the ... ruler. NOT just the firstborn, but, if you want it, the priority as to WHY the earth is about to be turned on its head and what is the basis of it.
So far with all I have seen, no one gets it.
So, forget what you see NOW, and start at the... primary level.
YEAH-SSS
(mwana wa-amai wangu chete kani iyeye
tisavengana
mwana wa-baba vangu kani iyeye
tisazvondana ) x2
(hukama hukama chete kani iwe uriwangu
hukama hukama chete kani iwe uriwangu) x2
hukama haugezwi nesipo setsvina
uri wangu weropa iwewe
paukama
hukama haugezwi nesipo setsvina
ndiri wako iwewe
paukama
kana tikavhiringana tinorwira mukaka wedu
pachedu imi vatorwa imi, paukama
musi wenhamo tinochemana ini newe
musi wenhamo tinochemana ini newe
musi wenhamo tinochemana ini newe
(my mother's child let us not hate each other x2
(my mother's child let us not hate each other x2
my father's child that let us not be enemies x2) x2
(relatives we are [she] is mine
relatives we are I am [hers]) x2
our being related can not be washed away like dirt with soap
you are mine by blood
our being related can not be washed away like dirt with soap
I am yours by blood
if we are at odds, we fight each other, because of the shared breast milk
It is nothing to do with you, strangers, because it is a ...PRIVATE issue
in the day of woe we weep for each other
in the day of woe we weep for each other
in the day of woe, we weep for each other
OK, NOW do you start to get the drift?
My sister and I have had each other's backs from way back when, and one reason why it was HER that I wrote a letter to as I was leaving, and said goodbye to NO ONE else was that I felt that I was abandoning her, and ONE thing I NEVER do, is back down. But I had to go, otherwise I would have killed my mother. She is the ONE person I ... understand and feel for, and because I begin to UNDERSTAND why I am the way I am, and what IMMENSE powers lie at MY disposal, I am going to FREE her, so that she spends the remainder of her days in... peace.
She is NOT dead, and for that I am grateful to God, because I also understand that there is a sort of thing called 'freedom of choice' that she is in her situation, but there is also been up to NOW, a power vacuum, because the ONE for whom the throne was kept was ... absent... from it.
not any more.
i will fuflfill my obligation to her, to keep her safe from harm, and fuck it, she will NOT die, ever.
I would rather leave the planet, myself, and for her sake, because of my mother, I will even do mu utmost to see to it that even my mother, from whose womb we both came, lives, but I will pull no punches in showing what is right and what is wrong,so that I prepare a people that I would not be ashamed of, to turn the earth over to, a people that is holy and true, and without any blemish.
So, I AM going home, to set her free from the disease, this 'embarrassment' that even themstupid south africans, the kalk bay residents, the woman I love "remember STOP Drinking", anyone? think is holding me back.
About THAT:- Funny that!
I spoke of the container thing with brackish water and two clear containers, and my other sister who was turning up her nose at all that, the sister I later explained was ... embarrassed... about me kicking and punching hard things. That happens to be the sister that I last spoke to who spoke so dismissively about yeukai. Her name is chengetai, which means 'keep' or 'preserve', and I am getting the sense here that this woman, who ignores everything that matters to me, thinks she can build some kind of 'relationship' with me based on the here and now, forgetting that I have a heart for some other things, that make me walk this odd way, because all my life I have been sort of 'pleading' with God that, if He can not let the one person whose life, whose ways, whose very being, I understand, and have resonate with, live, then why should he suffer me to have fifteen years of life?
Why not kill me instead?
Because that would be unbearable agony, to watch helplessly as she shrivels and dies.
So, if I have to, and I WILL, kill people so that I make my way to her and see her safe and sound, then I definitely WILL, and I have NOT, fools, changed my mind about allowing the rest of you, that I have decided do not deserve to live, live. Fuck it, I realise that fools like the little mama think I will let them off the hook.
dream on.
if I have decided that I am leaving this earth clean, then it is to be clean of everything that offends ME, and well, that is 99.99999999% of the current populace.
So, try your luck if you want to,but what I said I am going to do, that I WILL do.
I have slammed the door shut on the whole lot of you, and shut it remains, and who the fuck thinks he or she can budge me from that, or can direct me? Or second-guess me, and instruct me in the way I should go.
me the LORD over everything!
I heard they were fasting at vinnie's church. Boo- hoo!
I have said that I will kill all of them, save a few, and I WILL kill them, YEAH-SSS!
said them are go dis who?
said them are go dis ME?
said them are go dis ME?
(click of tongue in annoyance)
shut him out that man!
A chat them are chat
A chat them are chat
yap them are yap
gully side we are action pak
we no kos kos we nuh wear frock
gully side we are action pak
tell them anything are anything'
any dj any scene
any vocal every string
right now we are action pak!
Now, I am NOT saying that I hate the ... other woman... but fuck it, being called wrong,when Ihave eyes that see, like with the perpetual intrusion of silly women like that ms-I-know-it-all yesterday who probably assumed that when I went as per that vision, the woman who looked like michelle, that is "I can not look after the child alone", then if she brings that blasted son of hers to ME, I would have no option but to say, OK, well, I may as well take that woman even if I have to bear her son as well; well, THAT is insulting. I amthe ONE person that does NOT compromise, and a woman for ME, unless she is suicidal, MUST be a virgin, subservient, and out to... please me, not to tell me what to do, or call me her equal, or a child,and so far, because this woman that I love is ... STILL doubtful that it is HER that I am interested in, I am saying, again, that I do love you, and everyday, I THINK of you, and long for you. I am NOT interested in anyone else, You do not have to dress like a slut,or think you must do things that make me look up to you, or something, because all I need from you is ... YOU .
I am getting the sense here that you are as doubtful as i am that I matter to you, that you matter to me, but if only you knew. Maybe this will help, or something.I am not hopeful that you will not laugh at it and try to show me the way to go, again, and try to defy me again, but well, I am not known for being bashful, I will say it like I see it, and well, it is for you to accept it or laugh at it, again.
I am getting the sense here that you are as doubtful as i am that I matter to you, that you matter to me, but if only you knew. Maybe this will help, or something.I am not hopeful that you will not laugh at it and try to show me the way to go, again, and try to defy me again, but well, I am not known for being bashful, I will say it like I see it, and well, it is for you to accept it or laugh at it, again.
and when I do, I have nightmares
...
I hope I can... protect ...the one thing I cant live without.
baby knowing that I am in love
and I admit
I wanna say that
you are the one
Sometimes I let my fears
Sometimes I let my fears
overrule my common sense
instead of loving you
I was running away
you are the only
the one that
my walls wont hold
and I know that
even though I
I can be so cold
and its really not
not anything that you do
its even hard for me to understand
its something i just go through.
Of course, you are probably going to hate me for ...not... changing my mind about killing, torturing, and killing and sending to hell, umm, your relatives except for four with you as the fifth, which is another reason why I am... NOT... so hopeful, and another reason why I am not even going to bother coming to kalk bay today. Tomorrow, though is a different story, I am curious at what is going to happen.
YEAH-SSS!
God said, at one time, or rather, reminded me of a song, which goes, "You are my little secret/ and that is how we'll keep it", and at that time I was thinking somethings else, but this time, I do not have blinkers on me. He meant that there is basically ... not much... about me thatwill be hidden, so I am going to say what happened yesterday, and WHY the maverick is very curious as to what tony said is this 'meeting' that will takeplace tomorrow, about 'you guys', and I want to be there. Oh, and by the way, tony, the 'professor' is going to KILL you, just so you know. Meet on THAT!now, I need a song, yeah-ss
crazy!
the one who have fir holla who no want fir see we nice
the one who have fir holla who no want fir see we nice
the one who have fir holla who no wan we fir rejoice...
but you nuh gon' see we giving up we gonna fight!
...
a ghetto we come from
poverty we come from
try live up we nuh give
wha' dis
like a shot inna your heart
come dis!
when you see the ghetto youth become a champion
So, I got up, and decided to come, by foot to kalk bay, and I changed my route a bit, to answer a call of nature, and decided to pass by the hospital for that purpose. Then I thought, fuck this,I am going to buy food to eat, anyway, and so, I went to... spa?, and what do you know, THAT is where tony's other outspaan is, did you know? Anyway, I went, "Oh boy, now I am in MORE shit! Hope the asshole is NOT there, because i may get into more trouble here than I already am"
What do you know, he... WAS ...there.
What do you know, he... WAS ...there.
I passed by and bought me a pie and some of that chocolate flavoured milk, steri- something, and I walked out, not looking in at the restaurant, and I hoped that I had not been spotted.
That hope was dashed the moment I started up that slope overlooking the defunct clovelly train station, as tony,in his LDV, passed me, and was eating... a pie. Must have bought it and kept it specially to show me that... umm, I guess, he also can... EAT... a pie. I think. it is not easy to try to get into his ...befuddled mind. I suppose in his last few days he MUST rather take up drugs again, maybe he is suffering from more withdrawal symptoms that he is aware of. Maybe then, when his mind is like an arrow, sell-car, sell-wife, sell-child=> buy drugs, get high, sink-low, sell-shop => get high, then he will be quite happy, or lessof a nuisance. he thinks he has a brain. Yeah, right!
Anyway, he was rather talkative a bit later, and started, like the idiot that read what I wrote as he is, and was trying to show me up, to show me, the GENIUS, that I knew nothing,and so he asked eddy what causes wind. eddy could not answer, and at one time I wanted to say,too many beans, but then, he had to show off, and, he asked me, "professor, what causes wind", "Well, that is a good question", I replied, "but I only got up to grade seven, and the day they were teaching about wind was the day I was sick so I missed the lesson", and he decided to tell eddy that it has to do with high pressure and low pressure,and some other thing, and I had to literally- almost- kick myself NOT to ask him innocently what 'pressure' was. I was thinking more about valves, like loose ones, which I think kenny would know all about, since he is in that loosening behinds business. But, not to worry, I am not interested in killing HIM, for some weird reason. He has NOT ... OK, I will drop that right there!
But before all that, he had come and yelled at abisha- vinnie was absent- that he had not, again, watered the flowers, and they would have a meeting about 'you guys' on Monday. Because he did not water flowers. Wow!
bad, abisha, bad, real bad!
YOU
But before all that, he had come and yelled at abisha- vinnie was absent- that he had not, again, watered the flowers, and they would have a meeting about 'you guys' on Monday. Because he did not water flowers. Wow!
bad, abisha, bad, real bad!
YOU
MUST
WATER
FLOWERS
How can you be so ... inhumane? How would you like it if it was you? How would you feel? Poor flowers.
How can you be so ... inhumane? How would you like it if it was you? How would you feel? Poor flowers.
