One THING I hate more than anything else is having anything to do with me in someone else's hands, and me... waiting... for that someone or someones to show their hands so that I can proceed.
Bull-Fucking-Shit!
God, You ... Prick, is THIS what You 'claimed me for Yourself for', to have me as a continual object of derision, so that You can show me there is no low that You can not bring me to and I will STILL have to endure it because You have me so under Your clutches that I can not escape, You Asshole!
FUCK YOU!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
Ha!
So, these thoughts, and similar, werer going through my head yesterday as I sat dismally at vinnie's, watching and knowing that again I would be shortchanged and NOTHING of what I ... hoped for... would materialise, and I had just seen another pathetic ... fool... try to show me, ME, and this just after I had written that what I concluded from what I was shown was what was really ME, that she, and her pathetic daughter and her son were what I was hoping for, and well, I was getting very upset. and going, know what, lets waste EVERYONE RIGHT NOW, when this woman, brett's cousin, one of mike's girlfriends, shows up, pushing a pram, and she was about to walk by on the pavement, and then she changed tack, walked by where we were sitting, and then she goes, "Pack up, pack up, it is about to rain", and that is when I looked up, and, well, saw the dark cloud,and I switched off.
I am going to kill those blasted women, the st-peters woman, the coloured drunkard, and her cousin, and that other church fool, that son-in-law of vinnie's pastor, that decided that since I was pissed off at brett, maybe if he showed up with his kids things could be better.
Fuck it, I am NOT happy being in this fucking shithole, and when I said I would not be PUSHED, because I would then show just how UNREASONABLE I can get. And I am just getting warmed up.
Because later, when I would have had my money paid up, vinnie decided that my niggling little woes were of no account, and he should pay the considerable amount that is owed this other guy, and so I got R50 for my pains. I will take THAT into consideration when I act, because again I have to go back to kalk bay and make an exhibit of myself.
I have decided to kill the jews anyway. This after thinking that the woman was content to let me think she worked at the gallery, and even taking in the board when she came out and we were the closest we ever were ever, and she was content to have ms short and dumpy walk out and pretend to be involved with mike so that I could divert my anger from her, or whatever. no, I was looking for someone interested in ME, not someone interested in making use of ME, so everyone she wanted to stand FOR is dead.
I wanted to know, want to know, if she loves ME, period.
So, I want to know just how steep is the price of discovery. Right now, I will spare ONLY the immediate family members of hers that did NOT attract my ire, but everyone else is dead.
Every jew elsewhere is DEAD.
Well, what the fuck do YOU say about THAT God? Go back on Your word that You will NOT repent of Your decision to make me... immortal?
Fuck YOU!
ASSHOLE!
Bull-Fucking-Shit!
God, You ... Prick, is THIS what You 'claimed me for Yourself for', to have me as a continual object of derision, so that You can show me there is no low that You can not bring me to and I will STILL have to endure it because You have me so under Your clutches that I can not escape, You Asshole!
FUCK YOU!
Ha!
So, these thoughts, and similar, werer going through my head yesterday as I sat dismally at vinnie's, watching and knowing that again I would be shortchanged and NOTHING of what I ... hoped for... would materialise, and I had just seen another pathetic ... fool... try to show me, ME, and this just after I had written that what I concluded from what I was shown was what was really ME, that she, and her pathetic daughter and her son were what I was hoping for, and well, I was getting very upset. and going, know what, lets waste EVERYONE RIGHT NOW, when this woman, brett's cousin, one of mike's girlfriends, shows up, pushing a pram, and she was about to walk by on the pavement, and then she changed tack, walked by where we were sitting, and then she goes, "Pack up, pack up, it is about to rain", and that is when I looked up, and, well, saw the dark cloud,and I switched off.
Fuck it, I am NOT happy being in this fucking shithole, and when I said I would not be PUSHED, because I would then show just how UNREASONABLE I can get. And I am just getting warmed up.
Because later, when I would have had my money paid up, vinnie decided that my niggling little woes were of no account, and he should pay the considerable amount that is owed this other guy, and so I got R50 for my pains. I will take THAT into consideration when I act, because again I have to go back to kalk bay and make an exhibit of myself.
I have decided to kill the jews anyway. This after thinking that the woman was content to let me think she worked at the gallery, and even taking in the board when she came out and we were the closest we ever were ever, and she was content to have ms short and dumpy walk out and pretend to be involved with mike so that I could divert my anger from her, or whatever. no, I was looking for someone interested in ME, not someone interested in making use of ME, so everyone she wanted to stand FOR is dead.
I wanted to know, want to know, if she loves ME, period.
So, I want to know just how steep is the price of discovery. Right now, I will spare ONLY the immediate family members of hers that did NOT attract my ire, but everyone else is dead.
Every jew elsewhere is DEAD.
Well, what the fuck do YOU say about THAT God? Go back on Your word that You will NOT repent of Your decision to make me... immortal?
Fuck YOU!
ASSHOLE!
