First, let me say that I was laughing the whole day long.
And with reason, too.
I resisted the temptation of signalling my intent as usual, by NOT going to the internet cafe before coming to vinnie's, and instead just walked up to him, and started helping him out, like i was back for good. Knowing FULL well what THAT would mean, and loving every minute of it.
Well, I told the fools that I get bored, and I was fascinated by how they would take my last post. I mean, I DID come out in the open and say that -AND take THAT as being unchangeable, by anyone- I had DECIDED that everyone and their uncles would be dead by 2021, and well, I was certain that I would be alone by that date, because I, as I said, read people, and well, this silly woman can NOT get it into her head that, well, this is NO joke, and I have offered her a way out, which is non-negotiable, but I KNEW that she would take 'option b', when there is NO such option.Besides, I had decided that if I can not get her to see things my way,i would not bother trying to draw her to myself, because I do NOT do abductions, and so, I was like, You know, Fuck this God, I am going to kill this silly bitch, and ALL her jewish families, just you wait and see. This "five" left rubbish -from the ark vision;- bat's wings, and from the last one I mentioned where there were 'four more and she was the last one' and also from another one where I was holding a mike in the left hand and held up five fingers of my right hand and there were two women that were 'charred black" with the taller of them going "If God is NOT for us He is against us" THAT should be her REAL mother, not the gallery woman, maybe that woman who showed up, also blonde, and made sure i noticed her as she walked pitifully from first the gallery entrance as I walked by singing, "we gotta have a one to one", and then later when I was with vinnie-same day- in the bakery as i watched her again and was singing another appropriate song of the time, with the words, "what has to be just gotta be/why the haters fighting we/obstacles we over come because there aint no stopping we..." by chris martin and some other guy- is so much bullshit!
So, I went, and I could have written the script blindfolded.
from the cunt of a rasta-yes, again!- to mike, to the girl doing her puffed-up-adder act , like, if you want me then you better accept my ... terms.
Fuck that. Dressed like a slut!
You disgusted me so much today I wanted you to see yourself as I see you. Fuck, I wonder if someone dressed like her is available online
I need that song
And You say that she has a... BRAIN... right, God? ha ha, I am beginning to really, really doubt even Your perspicuity, here.
And wondering if what they say about blondes is REALLY true.
And also, well, WHY me? With THAT one!
Anyway, well, vinnie was 'congratulating' me when I got there that he saw WHY I was so into that girl, because she swayed past an hour earlier-I later saw her, in black top, a sort of pair of shorts, and black high heels, after I had laughed my head off, of course, at mike's showing off, but I will get there. I was actually interested in seeing the asshole and holding his gaze just in case he could look me in the eye and see if, even in his wildest dreams, there was ANY chance that I could actually ever let him off the hook, or let him live- on her way to the bakery and the guys were going she is 'mooi" She just became as attractive to me as a piece of shit, fresh laid, on which those green flies were buzzing. I told him there and then that THAT meant that there was absolutely NO way I would have anything to do with a cheap slut who does NOT respect me. I mean, them fools think having sex is what matters, but well, I always ask just WHY she, if she is a person who has a mind and knows what she wants, would stoop so low, on the unlikely grounds that she was doing it to make ME jealous;- I think she just likes the applause, the attention, in which case, I am well rid of her, because I'm NOT interested in changing anyone- to want me think with my dick, like I am... a child, to be led by lust. Fuck, I am beginning to seriously doubt that there is anything worthwhile salvaging in all this, so I am going to blast her with everything and leave nothing out, hold nothing back, and show her just what revulsion I hold her in, at this moment.
I have been bitter before, but with this one, bitter is NOTHING. I need to make a new word for what I am feeling, here!
Look at yourself, woman, as I saw you.
You were an attractive woman, but married, by the ring on your finger. Maybe by then I had already written about that "recess project' thing and you were trying to show me that i should not look at other women, that you were it, but even then, you had a... modicum..., slight, true, of decorum. In black jeans and a sort of skirt to cover your privates. And back then, I was like, in rebellion against God, because, in case you have NOT noticed, while you fools still hold on to past actions, I am in a state of constant evolution, where you leave me today is NEVER where you find me tomorrow, so, where I am concerned, judging me by my previous words and acts is a non -starter. If I discover, for instance, that God, (Who to me, and Whose attitude towards me, Is ALL that matters, since He alone can put fetters on me, and He is effectively saying, "You are free to do as you please") is NOT interested in USING me then I stop trying to piss Him off, and I become... ME, and THIS, what I wrote just a little while ago, and the person you saw today who laughed in your face and wanted to give you the finger to your face the second time you showed up but couldn't because you did not look my way, is ME, and I ... loathe... you.
I find that every word I have written to you, every act of mine, has been in vain, because I am not even back where I started from, I am even at a worse state than before.
Now, me, I do not even claim to know what God ... meant about five, but I tell you the truth, that as I stand, YOU, and ALL who were walking about, were in that building, either in the gallery, or even the office, all that were party to these things, are DEAD, and I am NOT interested in having anything to do with you, or
fuck, you disgust me!
You ... disgust me, for sure!
Anyway this is what happened today. I have time so I may as well ... USE ... it
Right, so after vinnie gave me the heads up, I started helping him pack stuff. I have a soft spot for him, and can not forget the ... past... so I just was laying the groundwork so that he does not have a heart attack or have dismal thoughts about his life when I star killing people, so I just got laid back, and tried to mend things between us, as much as I could.
Then, the cunt of a rasta walked by. Now, i am smarter than all of you, so I put two and two together, and I was like, mike is watching -now, no ... respect... intended, but I do not KNOW what his ... role in all this is, and well, he is not even... interesting. I mean, he is a piece of shit to me, a piece of shit i am going to make sure dies as painfully as possible for being in the wrong place at the wrong time, and thinking that any ... input of his matters to... ME. I mean, what the fuck does he think HE is? Really?- and the chick is watching,and they will have shutters down, like I do not know that they interest themselves in my life like they run it or something when in effect they are just... rubbish, all of them, and so, why try to ... hide? I mean, do they even ask themselves just WHY they are doing that? Like would it .... help them... to not just carry on with their lives and stop trying to think that THE LORD of this earth is a thing like a toy to be manouvered into the proper place?
Fuck do you know that the REASON why I am NOT taking over and destroying everything NOW is an ... argument?
And it has nothing to do with you silly fools, who think it is about you.
It is between me and God, and just what the fuck He meant by me not kidding myself that I would NOT have a... fuck it, what is the ... functional word? ;- PUSSY to entertain me after I kill of everyone.
Now, where was I?
So, the cunt of a rasta walks by, and I stopped and looked at him, and he tried to make eye contact, and then he... waved at me.Trying their luck, them fools, like I am realising that I have something to lose, so I am changing tack, and the silly, stupid woman is thinking to show me just what it will take to make me have her. Like, really WHO the fuck is this CHICK, God? Your ... mother? Someone who has a really great IQ, right?
And I settled for THIS? ha ha!
Then, of course, one thing after another, first butthead ii walked into my field of vision and she followed a while leter, dressedin that disgusting attire, and I shooed her away like a fly, and all the while she was just moving her car, some piece of shit,so that mike could park his landcruiser right in my face and walk out like daddy-big-bucks doing a photo shoot, pause, take off the glasses and smile. I could not help laughing aloud.
'And I moved myself from that place so that I could have a better view, of cleaner things. You know, even bird shit is cleaner than them cunts.
As soon, however , as I was done with beading my stuff, and was ready to work on a piece, and I moved back to where I had been before, she was out in a flash, doing her customary glance my way to see if I was watching, like I would drool over her or something if I see her. I pointed her out to vinnie, and sighed. If she used even half her energy to THINK, even slightly, she would be something. Unfortunately she did not look back at me when she walked back to that blasted building, and i diod not get a chance to flip her. BUT then, mike showed up at the blue bottle entarance and I looked at him a while, the followed him into the building, and looked him in the eye. Just that. He is a piece of shit, but I wonder if my ... message gopt through to him.
all in all, it wasprettey much what I expected all day.
