One thing I do so love about people is the complete inability to process... change.
now, here I am, telling everyone that I just revealed myself as I am, explain so fully the fact that God will cover my back while I curse Him and do all manner of complete badness on the planet because, well, -for crying out loud- to quote Him, "In Him we live and move and have our being, and existence exist in Him, and to him who sees will go the crown",[duh, I did just say I keep myself focused on HIM to prove Him wrong, did I not? and I am therefore the ONLY one to 'see' God] as I explained He told me, only I did not add that there was a woman... actually, let me put it this way, I was standing at the gate of my father's house, walking OUT and in front of me was a pair of woman's eyes, and forehead outside the gate, (and since the gate road was a bit above the level of the ground and the woman was hovering over the road, she was above me, meaning reading my mind) above a sheet, a grey sheet, like a news-spread, and she was looking at me dubiously, and there was THAT statement.
Fuck, I SAID I stopped paying lip service to God and showed myself as I am, already, and she still does not get it. OK, what do you expect from me, my... love?
let me show you something then, about something you already know, also, and for crying out loud, listen up, and DO something because, well, the funny thing about dates is, technically, I do NOT have to act on my birthday, my .... year ...starts the FIRST day of the month that I was ... born.
So, do you get it?
today is the 26th, Wednesday.
tomorrow will be the 27th, Thursday
the day after will be the 28th, Friday, the following day will be the twenty... no, it WILL be Saturday, the first of march.
"Oh no, by SATURDAY everyone will KNOW me?"
Ring a bell?
For fuck's sake!
I was busy trying to work, and of course I was thinking about everything, and about the fact that the woman I love was busy trying, all this time to unite two camps that were at odds. the first one believed itself right, supported by God, based on History, of course, because-and get this, fools think that God would support people against ME by giving THEM ammunition, from me, to do ME harm- and they were busy trying, first, to mould me into what they wanted me to be, and then, after they saw how single minded I was becoming, they decided to recruit you, because of course, what you feel/felt and how I was affected by you was so very obvious, and so,, let me guess, they tried to get you to get me to become a weakling, so they could manipulate me as they wished, and I was growing more and more antagonistic and I suppose they grew scared when they saw the unnatural effect even the weather was experiencing because of me, and so, they maybe talked you into getting me to 'go back home', by doing the one thing they thought would sever the link between me and you, especially as I was talking about the US, yes? And you kissed that guy, right as planned. he MUST be your brother, same nose, and the fact that everyone was left so unsure of themselves when they discovered that things did NOT go according to plan, not even with... you. because you showed a bit of what you thought even then, when I went after red-breeches, that opportunist, to tell her to grow up and if I saw her again I would kill her. Now, NO ONE ever thought to ASK why God would even LET me have power over the weather if He was against me, because it makes NO sense, but I suppose you never thought of that either. All you were doing was running on adrenalin, afraid to love, afraid to let go, because the heart IS the most sensitive of all... parts, isn't it. I still remember every time you looked at me, and how you waited up for me from the train station, and how I just loved seeing you, it made my day, and I still remember the second time you passed by and looked me in the eye, after I persisted with that squid chick, and you came unnoticed, and I saw that your nose was red, like the last time I saw you up close when I was actually thinking, this is the end, but when God, my enemy, Who according to YOU all, is against me, said, even as I wanted to despair and I was walking in fear that it was over reminded me of, "there'll be times when we'd be on different times but that's not gonna last too long", and anyway, your nose was red. I hear that white people get red noses from weeping. I do NOT say that you were weeping, but that you were like I was, ... eh... weeping inside, at all of IT Trust me, my love NONE of these people you want to reconcile me to actually WANT you and I to be together, and well, I suppose that it is time you became the ... daughter of zion... and came OUT of the people, just as I am the .... son of man.
rejoice greatly O Daughter of zion, for behold, your king cometh, humble and lowly, having justice, seated on a colt, the foal of a donkey.
One person. for One man, YOU,ME and the combo is unbeatable.
I fell for you, and that was never gonna change, from the first time I saw that look in your face, and well, you may want to make me change, but hell, THIS, this impossibility that I am, IS the future, and nothing else.
I mean, HOW can I know any of these things, my precious, if I do not have God WITH me, and for ME.
come on, admit that you love me, because the God of War is moving out, and I want you with me, and while I may not like NOT having you with me, I will never force you nor coerce you.
know however that what I promised, even that first time I was challenging God, that I would make those who stood against me suffer, WILL come to pass. Ok, I think we can talk about that, about your mother and sisters, but NOT about the rest of the fools, the males. It is a male dominance thing, and they had the balls to stand against me, well, fools, "quit ye like men" and pay the price. I will NOT let the insults GO, oh hell, not when you decided to show me just how insignificant I AM, right?
well, suffer the rather insignificant consequences, because I have an insignificant corner of hell all prepared for you fools.
Anyway, I got nothing more to say except that I am going to kill these fools, and then I am going to kill my mother and the rest of these people that I do not want to see spend an eternity In hell last, and then, about that water business...!
it is that weird, and hell, God said "be yourself", and I was telling you that this is myself, and so, what will you do about it? I fucking love you, completely, and unchangingly, and you ARE the best thing to ever happen to me. I mean, I never thought I would get to that because love is something that I never thought I could have, and I suppose that the power you have over me is as obvious as... the day, now.You alone can harm me, but I wonder if you would not harm yourself as well. you tied my hands, my love, and anyway, I never could come seeking you, because all this is impossible, and I do not want to see myself hurt that way anymore. So, well, decide. I love you.
And I really, really would like to kiss those lips of yours,. another reason why I will KILL that asshole, because he wanted me to SEE that, yes?
now, will you treat the Don Gogon like a kid, or let your mother's prejudices poison you against me? who, my love, do you tell when you love someone and hope that someone is in love with you?
ring any bells? woman who wanted the texas ranger to come to her home, and made it seem like a date, because she wanted him to 'meet' some other law enforcement official? there can be only one LAW, and I am it.
Yeah-sss!
Oh, hell, I love you, and you KNOW that. Do not pretend you do not. you know how I react when I see you, and you have monitored me, and no one has ever had that effect on me, and you can SEE that.
this is the genuine article, and hell, see it for yourself, "gumboy" the king of shanko, and "rumble", the essence of survive, with the background music being the teenage mutant ninja turtles opening theme. the rebel who HATES God, and yet is kept alive by Him, the undead person that He will NEVER let GO of NOT even to sickness. The king seated on a colt, a colt that is a foal, meaning it has NOT learnt to submit to riders but goes where it wishes, even overrides the rider as well, and his duty is to make sure I ... LIVE.
this will NEVER end
It is NOT science fiction.
Now, all I need to do is roll up my sleeves and just get gory, and ... KILL... people. I mean, make no mistake about it, I am gonna LOVE doing this, YEAH-SSS!
this is what makes me, this is what I am.
now, here I am, telling everyone that I just revealed myself as I am, explain so fully the fact that God will cover my back while I curse Him and do all manner of complete badness on the planet because, well, -for crying out loud- to quote Him, "In Him we live and move and have our being, and existence exist in Him, and to him who sees will go the crown",[duh, I did just say I keep myself focused on HIM to prove Him wrong, did I not? and I am therefore the ONLY one to 'see' God] as I explained He told me, only I did not add that there was a woman... actually, let me put it this way, I was standing at the gate of my father's house, walking OUT and in front of me was a pair of woman's eyes, and forehead outside the gate, (and since the gate road was a bit above the level of the ground and the woman was hovering over the road, she was above me, meaning reading my mind) above a sheet, a grey sheet, like a news-spread, and she was looking at me dubiously, and there was THAT statement.
Fuck, I SAID I stopped paying lip service to God and showed myself as I am, already, and she still does not get it. OK, what do you expect from me, my... love?
let me show you something then, about something you already know, also, and for crying out loud, listen up, and DO something because, well, the funny thing about dates is, technically, I do NOT have to act on my birthday, my .... year ...starts the FIRST day of the month that I was ... born.
So, do you get it?
today is the 26th, Wednesday.
tomorrow will be the 27th, Thursday
the day after will be the 28th, Friday, the following day will be the twenty... no, it WILL be Saturday, the first of march.
"Oh no, by SATURDAY everyone will KNOW me?"
Ring a bell?
For fuck's sake!
I was busy trying to work, and of course I was thinking about everything, and about the fact that the woman I love was busy trying, all this time to unite two camps that were at odds. the first one believed itself right, supported by God, based on History, of course, because-and get this, fools think that God would support people against ME by giving THEM ammunition, from me, to do ME harm- and they were busy trying, first, to mould me into what they wanted me to be, and then, after they saw how single minded I was becoming, they decided to recruit you, because of course, what you feel/felt and how I was affected by you was so very obvious, and so,, let me guess, they tried to get you to get me to become a weakling, so they could manipulate me as they wished, and I was growing more and more antagonistic and I suppose they grew scared when they saw the unnatural effect even the weather was experiencing because of me, and so, they maybe talked you into getting me to 'go back home', by doing the one thing they thought would sever the link between me and you, especially as I was talking about the US, yes? And you kissed that guy, right as planned. he MUST be your brother, same nose, and the fact that everyone was left so unsure of themselves when they discovered that things did NOT go according to plan, not even with... you. because you showed a bit of what you thought even then, when I went after red-breeches, that opportunist, to tell her to grow up and if I saw her again I would kill her. Now, NO ONE ever thought to ASK why God would even LET me have power over the weather if He was against me, because it makes NO sense, but I suppose you never thought of that either. All you were doing was running on adrenalin, afraid to love, afraid to let go, because the heart IS the most sensitive of all... parts, isn't it. I still remember every time you looked at me, and how you waited up for me from the train station, and how I just loved seeing you, it made my day, and I still remember the second time you passed by and looked me in the eye, after I persisted with that squid chick, and you came unnoticed, and I saw that your nose was red, like the last time I saw you up close when I was actually thinking, this is the end, but when God, my enemy, Who according to YOU all, is against me, said, even as I wanted to despair and I was walking in fear that it was over reminded me of, "there'll be times when we'd be on different times but that's not gonna last too long", and anyway, your nose was red. I hear that white people get red noses from weeping. I do NOT say that you were weeping, but that you were like I was, ... eh... weeping inside, at all of IT Trust me, my love NONE of these people you want to reconcile me to actually WANT you and I to be together, and well, I suppose that it is time you became the ... daughter of zion... and came OUT of the people, just as I am the .... son of man.
rejoice greatly O Daughter of zion, for behold, your king cometh, humble and lowly, having justice, seated on a colt, the foal of a donkey.
One person. for One man, YOU,ME and the combo is unbeatable.
I fell for you, and that was never gonna change, from the first time I saw that look in your face, and well, you may want to make me change, but hell, THIS, this impossibility that I am, IS the future, and nothing else.
I mean, HOW can I know any of these things, my precious, if I do not have God WITH me, and for ME.
come on, admit that you love me, because the God of War is moving out, and I want you with me, and while I may not like NOT having you with me, I will never force you nor coerce you.
know however that what I promised, even that first time I was challenging God, that I would make those who stood against me suffer, WILL come to pass. Ok, I think we can talk about that, about your mother and sisters, but NOT about the rest of the fools, the males. It is a male dominance thing, and they had the balls to stand against me, well, fools, "quit ye like men" and pay the price. I will NOT let the insults GO, oh hell, not when you decided to show me just how insignificant I AM, right?
well, suffer the rather insignificant consequences, because I have an insignificant corner of hell all prepared for you fools.
Anyway, I got nothing more to say except that I am going to kill these fools, and then I am going to kill my mother and the rest of these people that I do not want to see spend an eternity In hell last, and then, about that water business...!
it is that weird, and hell, God said "be yourself", and I was telling you that this is myself, and so, what will you do about it? I fucking love you, completely, and unchangingly, and you ARE the best thing to ever happen to me. I mean, I never thought I would get to that because love is something that I never thought I could have, and I suppose that the power you have over me is as obvious as... the day, now.You alone can harm me, but I wonder if you would not harm yourself as well. you tied my hands, my love, and anyway, I never could come seeking you, because all this is impossible, and I do not want to see myself hurt that way anymore. So, well, decide. I love you.
And I really, really would like to kiss those lips of yours,. another reason why I will KILL that asshole, because he wanted me to SEE that, yes?
now, will you treat the Don Gogon like a kid, or let your mother's prejudices poison you against me? who, my love, do you tell when you love someone and hope that someone is in love with you?
ring any bells? woman who wanted the texas ranger to come to her home, and made it seem like a date, because she wanted him to 'meet' some other law enforcement official? there can be only one LAW, and I am it.
Yeah-sss!
Oh, hell, I love you, and you KNOW that. Do not pretend you do not. you know how I react when I see you, and you have monitored me, and no one has ever had that effect on me, and you can SEE that.
this is the genuine article, and hell, see it for yourself, "gumboy" the king of shanko, and "rumble", the essence of survive, with the background music being the teenage mutant ninja turtles opening theme. the rebel who HATES God, and yet is kept alive by Him, the undead person that He will NEVER let GO of NOT even to sickness. The king seated on a colt, a colt that is a foal, meaning it has NOT learnt to submit to riders but goes where it wishes, even overrides the rider as well, and his duty is to make sure I ... LIVE.
this will NEVER end
It is NOT science fiction.
Now, all I need to do is roll up my sleeves and just get gory, and ... KILL... people. I mean, make no mistake about it, I am gonna LOVE doing this, YEAH-SSS!
this is what makes me, this is what I am.
